...only a few weeks late. I am not good at joining groups. I'm not sure why it is so hard for me. Once I join, I usually always enjoy myself. I was added to a photography group that gives you weekly photo suggestions. Since I was added after the project started, I decided to go back and complete the missed assignments.
The first week of the year is "Self- Portrait". Good timing, right? New Year, New You; isn't that the motto? Taking a good look at yourself and seeing what needs to be changed? Making resolutions to get fit, lose weight, be happy, work less, travel more. I'm sure we can go on and on.
Those of you who know me, know that I have been going through a lot of changes and have had some recent sadness in my life. This project was hard, really really hard. I know that my sparkle is gone. I know that I have bags under my eyes. It was so difficult for me to get in front of my own camera, even with no one else in the studio. I know that we are are own worst critic, but seriously...this was bad.
I uploaded my photos to photoshop and started editing. Revert. Edit. Revert. Edit...you get the picture. I wasn't happy with my images. I finally decided to leave my photos unedited. Hey, it's ok to have a few blemishes, I'm not perfect. I have laugh lines; must mean I have spent much of my life laughing. Those bags though, I guess age, tears, lack of sleep have taken a toll.
When I look at my self-portrait, I see a woman that is getting older. I see the little lines that weren't there just a few years ago. I see a woman who has faced and overcome many challenges in her life. I see a woman who has loved hard. I see a woman who has suffered loss. I guess, I just see me. I am not ashamed of who I am, who I have become, or what I look like.
It's just me.
Do you want to challenge yourself as well? Take a self-portrait and really look at it. What do you see? Every scar, every line...tells a story. Your story. The Struggle Fighting this project. This was my first pose of the session. Just OK Wasn't quite sure if I wanted to smile or keep a straight face. I'm Fine This was my favorite photo out of the group.